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Bleeding

Tuesday 12th October, 2010 - 12:15am with 3 comments

I hate being treated like a kid. Worse, I hate you calling me “fucking stupid”. So Sebastian was right. You have to earn respect.

“… fucking, fucking, fucking stupid… you’re so fucking stupid, fucking dumb…”

Curse you.

I don’t know what to feel anymore.

Yesterday, you hurt me so much, I went back. To the past and a shadow that hurt me. Yesterday, in rage, the first thing I saw was a silver needle. I scraped it violently across my hand.

You’re the reason it was. As much as it hurts, I don’t want you to be the reason for it again. And I regret picking up the needle. I don’t know what comfort there was in the scratch on my hand, if any.

I wish you knew I loved you.

Posted on: Tuesday, October 12th, 2010 at 12:15 am
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Lilian

Tuesday 12th October, 2010 at 12:17 am

:(

*HUGS*

Please, no more cutting. It’s not worth it. Not even SHE is worth it.

WE LOVE YOU LOTS! *nods*…

*HUGS*

STAY STRONG!!!

You’re not stupid at ALL!

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Rin

Tuesday 12th October, 2010 at 1:46 am

): Georgina! My heart actually aches for you. *HUGS*

I know you are angry. But you know, that person wouldn’t know you’ve hurt yourself because of him. Worse still, he wouldn’t feel sorry for it because you are hurting yourself, not him.

Don’t ever hurt yourself anymore. ): And I don’t feel that you’re stupid or dumb at all too although I’m considered as a new reader here. *HUGS TIGHTLY*

I hope you feel better soon! There are people who care for you offline and online. <33

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Elena

Tuesday 12th October, 2010 at 1:53 am

Hey, Georgie.

I agree with Lilian. Self-harm will only make you “feel good” for the moment…maybe.

There are other ways of getting out your feelings. I know that you know that.

And Georgie, I’m not just saying this…I care about you. Let me know if there’s a way I can help. I’m here even just for venting. I’m just an e-mail/tweet/blog comment away. <3

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