On Love: The Journey and 43 quintillion

Saturday 9th October, 2010 - 12:44am with 0 comments

This is a little something I wrote to my dear friend Sebastian…

“… but you can’t wait around for something like that. You can’t be 100% sure it’s coming. And think about it this way: You can’t just sit there and wait; sometimes you have to pull your socks up and take a step yourself, without forcing it to come. Sort of the way people “look for love”. LOL it’s stupid, I know. But you do it the other way. You make friends, talk to lots of people, be nice.

Honestly, I personally do not think you can be lovers before you are friends. So you go about doing it in the nicest, most unhurtful way possible. People who force it – suck. They’re the manipulative, selfish people like Bearman. They’re people who just want whatever it is in the core of it. They don’t see what is on the outside. It’s a shell of friendship – you have to find that first.

You cant open the door without the key. You can’t love someone until you understand them the way a friend does. Yeah, there’ll be people, but there’s a way to people. There’s a way to earn their feelings in the way we all imagine and want. But it’s always a difficult path. Friendships are different, which is why love is hard (quoth James Morrison).

You have to be friends, and people are all different. It’s why the friend you are to me is different from the friend I have, in, say, Ryan. Like when we talked about fires. You have the sticks but it could be a different fire if you tried to remake it after it died. Here we have the same sticks but the sticks are still different… some are older than others, have a different way of reacting; the sticks are standard. You know, win someone’s heart by doing nice things, being their friend, etc.

But the way you do it; it’s different. It’s why no two relationships are ever the same.

Love is a piece of shit. Let’s face it.

I’m just saying, it’s hard, but looking at it, there are 293075304875029481085 possibilities for it.
You have the sticks but there are 293075304875029481085 ways to do the one thing.

Just like there are 43 quintillion ways to solve a Rubik’s cube.
Just the way some people reach the same destination, in different ways.
Just the way you, me, Ryan, Dahlia, Vicky, Rachel, and everyone else ended up in the same course at the same university. :)

Chin up, bb.

(But despite that y’know I can’t solve a Rubik’s cube.)

But I’ve seen my brother do it.
You’ve seen people fall in love.
It’s totally possible.”

Posted on: Saturday, October 9th, 2010 at 12:44 am
Categories: Contemplation, Love
Tags: Brandon · Rubik's cube · Sebastian
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