Senselessness

Saturday 14th August, 2010 - 11:19am with 0 comments

Sometimes I feel like a small part of me misses what happened between us. Except it’s like a crying bitter voice, that ends up being forgotten. I might remember everything and play it back in my head over and over. And it happens more often than not.

It’s not like a curse, or indulgence, but rather a memory to which I feel nostalgic. I feel no emotion evoked in me. It’s unnatural, and foreign. It’s as if I have to force myself to react.

Every now and then, I think, why am I thinking about this. It is not wrong, it does not bother me, it does not annoy me, and it doesn’t hurt others. Is it a selfish thought, its quality to which I am unfazed? It something that passes by the thought process, sometimes leading to thoughts of possibility, but most of the time, just that – just passing by.

I did not want it to be distant, but some things dissipate. Some things are meant to be back there.

Posted on: Saturday, August 14th, 2010 at 11:19 am
Categories: Contemplation, Friends
Tags: memory · thoughts
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